“Even to your old age, I am He,
and even to gray hairs I will carry you!
I have made, and I will bear;
Even I will carry, and will deliver you.” Isaiah 46:4
Yes, I’m turning 36 in a few hours! Yay! As opposed to what they say about never asking women their age, I don’t mind at all whenever I get asked. It’s just that for sometime during my late 20’s, my mind kind of gotten stuck at 22. Haha! But when I turned 30, I started getting the hang of it and know for the most part how old I am when I get asked. And tomorrow I get to celebrate another year of God’s faithfulness! I love it!
I contemplate for a bit and I realize that it is all because of God’s grace in my life that I am able to rejoice in turning a year old. I’m sure I have mentioned this a while back in some old blog entries, that it was when I was 19 years old that I was told by a doctor in University of Santo Tomas (where I graduated from college) that I might have the big C. I bargained with God during that time and I asked Him for 5 more years to live so I can go back to where I left off since I knew in my heart that I was awfully backslidden back then. Lo and behold, 17 years after, I am still alive and kicking. Still a work in progress but totally living for Him and in the best of health than I ever been in my life. At least for the time being. Even our health we can never really count on.It can fail us together with every single thing that’s temporal in this life.
“For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.” Psalm 139:13-14
The Lord has been extremely faithful to me, more than I will ever deserve. Even as my husband and son have been conspiring about a birthday present this past few days, constantly whispering to each other and giving me those silly, loving grins, I cannot help but just be grateful and thank God for the grace and favor He has showered upon me. I have been constantly pleading with my love to not give me anything fancy, like he always does. I’d be giddy if I’d have a bake and churn ice cream cake and that’s it. 🙂
I might have one wish for my 36th though, which I am not going to apologize for saying out loud – it’s my birthday anyway. That is, to live to see my parents truly love each other. That is just something that is foreign to me to this day. But that does not change the fact that I love them both just the same. It’s just a simple heartcry of a 36 year old birthday girl. As I get showered with kisses and embraces and everything sweet by my Jeff and Jed, my heart sings praises to my personal Lord and Savior, to whom my life is at His disposal, Jesus! Thank you Lord for another year! 🙂